My6children's Blog

YUck!!

Angela Lasky — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 17:38:26 +0000

I am happy that I have not gone to ER in over 3 weeks for pain! However, last week I had 4 seizures :0( again God was watching over me and my son! I hate this… apparently during one of them I started laughing and eating a cigarette??? I did not know this until 3 days later- I guess my husband cleaned me up and hooked me up to the oxygen machine. I went and saw a new neuro surgeon a couple days ago, he said that I might have problems with the top of my spine so I will do more tests there. Otherwise, he said I may have to undergo another MVD brain surgery. This doctor studied under the man that did my last one, and that is so reassuring! I am scared though because it took 4 blood transfusions and they lost me twice on the table. I am 13 years older and dealing with these stupid seizures now and don’t know if I can do it! I am so thankful that my husband is my best friend and support- I love my whole family and they are right there for me. I miss so much though- driving, teaching, school etc… I am going back to painting and writing with my sister and I know that will help too!

It happened- Idroped him

Angela Lasky — Fri, 16 Jul 2010 23:37:18 +0000

It finally happened- I did drop him BUT my sister in law caught him. Thank God! It freaked me out for a couple of days and I went through this HUGE emotional breakdown of sorts. I was afraid to do almost anything at all without my husband or family member right next to me. Then as I was getting up at 5am to pray and do my Bible study for the day 3 days later, I was reminded this- I DO NOT HAVE TO LIVE IN FEAR! Not to this stupid epilepsy or even this trigeminal neuralgia either. God is in control anyway- He goes behind me and before me. I do not know when the next seizure will happen- I do not remember them anyway (LOL) and there is nothing I CAN DO except pray. I guess I had a small one 3 days ago and my sister told me the next day. She said it only lasted about 30 seconds. I was not holding the baby at the time it happened. So now I have decided that the best thing I can do for safety when I am walking with the baby or bathing him etc… is to just keep talking/singing out loud to him and that way if my husband (or whomever) hears me stop, or change in some way out of the normal they can come and check on us.

Summer and the dreaded pool!

Angela Lasky — Wed, 30 Jun 2010 14:41:33 +0000

Summer is here and the one thing I have been dreading since Ezekiel was in my stomach has come to pass THE POOL!

I hate this on the one hand all is well and things are going fine, I have not had a seizure in 3 weeks now. Everyone goes about on normal function and we all should, it is dumb to function on any other level. However, it is absolutely unsafe to hand me the baby in the pool. Yes, I know it is 106 degrees outside, and it is a beautiful day. Yes, I think the baby would like to go in the pool, it is like a giant bath with Mommy and Daddy. But I do not know when I have my seizures and were I to have one while holding my son in that wonderful pool it would not be good holding my 3 month old. I still panic just taking a shower and getting into the pool by myself.

On the one hand I do not want to let my seizures control me and live in constant fear of everything. I have already been robbed of many things because of it (like my job, and driving etc…). The flip side of things are that I am fearful of dumb things that are not so dumb when you think about them like: I could drown myself in the shower or pool if I have a seizure, or drop the baby while having one on the tile floor and the list could be endless. People/family will roll their eyes at me and say that I am being “dramatic” but I do not think I am and I feel that my fears are legitimate. It is just trying to balance this in a healthy way that I am struggling with. I know God can take this from me but He hasn’t and in the meantime I keep giving it to Him.

Epilespsy and new mom worries

Angela Lasky — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 17:59:43 +0000

My youngest is at the moment only 3 months old and he is a perfect baby. I however catch myself worrying over just the regular “new mom” stuff (I don’t care how many babies you have had before you go through it again with every new one), and now that I have epilepsy in addition to my TN I am filled with tons of worries that I don’t know how to handle.

Before my seizures were only laughing ones (I still had to quit teaching because I was scaring the crap out of my students) but now they have changed and I am worried. I have plenty of help with my husband and older boys but I feel trapped and frightened all the time. There have to be other new moms out there dealing with this stuff but I have not found any. My regular doctor says I just need to keep praying and I should go back to my painting. Sounds nice and all but not helpful if I have a seizure while putting the baby in his swing and drop him and his cracks his head on the floor! That is not a pretty picture. Plus all this stress is messing with my breast milk. I will be glad when he starts walking.

Breastfeeding

Angela Lasky — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 18:23:32 +0000

I am breastfeeding my baby and I get really annoyed at the response from people. Out in public (even in Dr’s offices) I get looks from people who feel as if I am somehow offending them by feeding my child the way God intended. I am tired of it! I do not feel like anyone should ever be offended. I also get negative response from family members too. This should not be and I find it frustrating! Breastfeeding both sets of twins was hard and I did not go out much, but with one child it is easier and I am irked at all the commentary I get on the subject! I know it is awkward for the older boys when they come into my room and I am feeding the baby BUT that is a discussion I have had with them all many times since the baby has been born.This is the reason why women have boob’s! My husband and I looked up breastfeeding laws in CA this morning and by law I can feed my son in any public place. I am saddened that it had to go so far to become a law in the first place.

Hello world!

Angela Lasky — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 23:12:19 +0000

Hello,

I have a bunch of boys. Being a mom is the most wonderful thing in my life! There are other things to me as well but if you are interested then please READ ON! I am just trying out this blog writing to do a couple of things: to replace my journal (I can’t seem to keep it up faithfully), to get things that are bugging me off my chest (I apparently have a lot and am running out of room for my son’s milk-LOL) and my husband suggested that there might be other moms out there going through the same stuff I am. So here it goes :0)…..